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Sunday, January 31, 2010

why is it so hard to let my ego go?


I made a really fantastic vegan crumb cake today- from Colleen Patrick-Goudreau's "The Joy of Vegan Baking." The recipe quadrupled fantastically, and was moist with a great crumb. I was only laughed at a tiny bit for taking a photo of it with my computer.
Really crappy day so far. In general I think I'm a kind of mean person and have very little tact, so those are things I try ridiculously hard to change. I put so much energy in to trying to be kind, and compassionate, and sensitive of people's feelings and how they need to be communicated with and today I didn't do that. I didn't think before I spoke and forgot how easy it is fore someone to take things as a personal attack on one's character, self worth etc. I feel really shitty about.
I need to figure out how to begin to repair that conflict, but be firm (while being loving ) on why I think those specific things I was thinking....albeit in a less direct more loving way.
off to curl up with "the bean trees" (only 30 pages left to finish) and cuddle a blanket.
please send me some patience.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

I know where my satisfaction lies, way beyond the blue Horizon

yesterday started with breakfast- blueberry/ raspberry muffins that I cooked up Thursday night, followed by a full day in the kitchen. I was only scheduled for breakfast, but we got a huge produce order in and Friday marked the beginning of 3 classes and 30+ people for every meal. So I put the order away and helped prep a ton of food for the next few days. I also decided to deal with... the storage closet. This involved, taking everything out, cleaning sticky honey mess and other goodies off the shelves, organizing it all and making an inventory sheet, now on the doors. So satisfying to have (even the tiniest bit that will be gone in a week of) order. Overall an intense day in the kitchen, but really what I needed. I was able to have some lovely, lovely conversations that helped me put aside some frustration I was having, and got to meet a whole new batch of students.
A fellow intern was playing the top 25 from his I pod and the Anais Mitchell song "come September" came on. And I launched in to my "she's so amazing, I saw her at a house show in Minneapolis last year where I went to be the rock as my bestie met her significant other's friends and it was amazing but I had to go upstairs in this house and hide in a bedroom halfway through the show to make a conference call for the bike trip I was going on..." And his response was, oh yeah, she's amazing and a really good friend of mine... crazy!Vermont just keeps getting better and better...



Today I made an asparagus, sun dried tomato, onion, parm, mozz frittata that turned out fantastically! and because Heidi loves me, she bought 25 pounds of eggplant! and a case of red pepper. This means I get to make a roasted eggplant soup tomorrow, and all kinds of eggplant things to come. Yum!
this afternoon I am going to a seed swap in Barre and this evening either a bluegrass band on the mountain or square dancing. so many fun choices- woot!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

thoughtful thursday

hello.
ah, Thursday!
this morning I made breakfast sandwiches and finally figured out a good way to make eggs for 12 people. I scrambled around 16 eggs together and then took a half sheet pan, lined it with butter and poured in the eggs- added some grated mozz, and baked for 20 min or so, cut in to 12 rectangles and then scooped up each one, folded over and had perfect scrambled eggs for a sandwich- they were so fluffy, and so easy to clean. I'm a fan.
The timber framing class is out on site today putting up their structure (!!!) so they made themselves sammies at breakfast and everyone was out of my hair for lunch! so I made Isa's fudgy wudgy blueberry brownies, and some blueberry muffins for tomorrow. We are getting solar panels installed on the roof and one of the burly 'grow solar' guys is a vegan- and has been for 16 years...pretty cool.

I've been really frustrated yesterday and today with middle aged (white) men with entitlement issues who are not signed up for the meal plan but come and eat breakfast, help themselves to things in the fridge, and eat our fruit, cookies, etc. Why do they think that this is OK? I know that $25 is a lot of money- but for 3 meals a day, all freshly made, often meat, help yourself to as much food as you want, juice, coffee and dessert- it's really not a bad deal. \
so, thinking of them, and trying to be mindful I leave you with some Thich Nhat Hanh- so we can all take a few seconds to be grateful, and to be kind and compassionate (I really need to work on being compassionate to a few I 'm frustrated with)

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Nourishing Awareness
When we sit down to dinner and look at our plate filled with fragrant and appetizing food, we can nourish our awareness of the bitter pain of people who suffer from hunger. Every day, 40,000 children die as a result of hunger and malnutrition. Every day! Such a figure shocks us every time we hear it. Looking deeply at our plate we can "see" Mother Earth, the farm workers, and the tragedy of hunger and malnutrition.
We who live in North America and Europe are accustomed to eating grains and other foods imported from the Third Worlds, such as coffee from Colombia, chocolate from Ghana, or fragrant rice from Thailand. We must be aware that children in these countries, except those from rich families, never see such fine products. They eat inferior foods, while the finer products are put aside for export in order to bring in foreign exchange. There are even some parents who, because they do not have the means to feed their children, resort to selling their children to be servants to families who have enough to eat.
Before each meal, we can join our palms in mindfulness and think about the children who do not have enough to eat. Doing so will help us maintain mindfulness of our good fortune, and perhaps one day we will find ways to do something to help change the system of injustice that exists in the world. In many refugee families, before each meal, a child holds up his bowl of rice an says something like this: "Today, on the table, there are many delicious foods. I am grateful to be here with my family enjoying these wonderful dishes. I know there are many children less fortunate, who are very hungry." Being a refugee he knows, for example, that most Thai children never see the kind of fine rice grown in Thailand that he is about to eat. It is difficult to explain to children in the "overdeveloped" nations that not all children in the world have such beautiful and nourishing food. Awareness of this fact alone can help us overcome many of our own psychological pains. Eventually our contemplation can help us see how to assist those who need our help so much.
Thich Nhat Hanh

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

wicked wednesday






I really like alliteration, and I really don't like trudging back up to the school to blog some nights, so apologize for my lack of entry yesterday. I know, I know you were thinking "Gosh Lylee, how dare you not update, my whole Wednesday was just awful not knowing what exciting things you did on Tuesday!"
here are the photos from my awesome romp in the woods on Sunday.

Yesterday I cooked lunch and dinner- and made an eggplant moussaka, which turned out super well. Eggplant, lentils, potatoes and a homemade red sauce with a Béchamel sauce on top to finish it. Yum! This morning was kind of long and hectic. Made molasses cinnamuffins and smoothies for breakfast- I even snuck seaweed and Kale in to them!. Heidi was in a bad mood, two different orders came during lunch that had to be put away, and general negative energy around. Today was suppose to be "intern fun day" after lunch...which got delayed but ended up being late afternoon intern fun few hours- we went to a co-worker's outdoor hot tub, made some drinks, and proceeded to have a music 'jam session' with a trombone, (unplugged) electric guitar, egg shaker, harmonica and spoons... super fun. Taco bar for dinner, a few episodes of freaks and geeks, and viewings of 80's video's. Ready for the rest of the week now. recharged.
excited to take some time this weekend and next week to really plan seeds, and think about starting some seedlings inside.
woot!








Monday, January 25, 2010

just another manic monday

(oh oh oh )
actually another rainy Monday.
and our first successful formal Monday, where about half of the interns and our awesome long term work trader dressed up in suits and dresses and even glitter! just to break out of the winter blues/ we never get to dress up/.
it's the end of January and today was 45 degrees and raining all day long...
I'm beginning to think that blogging everyday is silly, as there isn't much exciting or new to talk about.
It reminds me of a Greg Brown song- on the album from the kate wolf festival. He talks about how he has to write songs about other people and stories because if he just wrote songs about his life they'd be so boring and repetitive.. they'd go something like "do do do do do do not a bad day do do do do filled the bird feeder ,damn those lil fellas sure at a lot...do do do do do do not a bad day do do do Joe stopped bye... do do do not a bad day.."
rainy
worked half a day today and took a nap and read the rest of the time.
kind of blue for no particular reason.
kind of exciting though- I'm making drawings to go over the lights in the kitchen...
and
yesterday i went exploring in the woods in my head to toe ski suite- most fantastic Christmas present ever. It was nice to run outside- I slid all the way down the hill back towards the cabin on my bum and made a stop at the tree house, which still has a hammock up even though it's winter. perfect. I'll post photos eventually.
hearts!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

getting out of the bubble

slept in today because I didn't have to cook breakfast- hooray!
last night I spent a few hours working on a new drawing and listening to the news, something I haven't done in a few days (the news part.) I feel like each headline that was read made me more and more frustrated and weary of the state of the world... It was the first I had heard of the Senate bill


followed by lots of news on what is actually happening in Haiti... It's so nice to be here and to focus on cooking, and animals and beginning the process of growing things- I feel so out of touch with the community though, and with connecting with the rest of the world. I guess going to protests and benefits, and minimal amounts of organizing in Minneapolis wasn't really doing much, but at least it felt like something...

Saturday, January 23, 2010

I love you most of all...

at dinner the lovely Erin asked me if I knew much of the beach boys. I don't really know much aside from pet sounds and she introduced me to this epic song that is "totally my song"

How we gonna kick it?



Gonna kick it root down!!!!
from our local Edible green mountains, advertising the co-op in Burlington. So cute!! it makes me smile and laugh every time I see it. Brilliant.
After a full day the chickens seem to be doing ok. This morning there was a tiny bit of a face off between the two roosters (they just stood outside looking at each other for a while) but no huge altercations.
In the morning our rooster and 3 of his chickens left and stood watch by a tree on the other side of the kitchen just standing guard- not eating, or pecking... when I went to close the cage all of them were on perches, sleeping except the three new Plymouth rocks (pretty black and white feathers) were on the floor pecking and chatting. In general lots of chicken talk and bickering, I think everyone is doing all right though.
I have a day off tomorrow (hooray!!!) so I'm hoping to spend some time with them just trying to put them at ease and hang out/ get more comfortable with them. I'm a little afraid to really hold them and such because our rooster Bill is good at his job/ quite territorial. I think everyday this week he has pecked/ puffed up at one of the interns- sometimes worse then others.

Breakfast went well today. I made biscuits and cooked eggs in muffin tins (an idea thanks to the egg legacy steph left) fried some ham and made lil sammies. A good idea in theory, but in practice a bit crumbly and perhaps not the tastiest, but people seemed to like them. Made a soup, did some tasks...

Skip came to teach a class and brought A bunch of plants for me, and I'd never even met him before!He knew that the past kitchen/garden intern really appreciated getting plants from him/ was really excited, etc. (Another big thank you to steph ) so that is really exciting.

above find a few photos of my walk to work. It was beautiful this morning, everything covered in ice crystals...and cold cold cold... It was so sunny today, Minneapolis sunny.







Friday, January 22, 2010

color me changing

sorry for all of the format and background changes... i can't quite find one I like, perhaps I can figure out a way to design my own?!

c on the way to begin

h- your the second letter in oh
I i am the third oh
C I'm the fourth letter in that bird.....
k i'm fillin in
e- i'm near the end
oh C-h-i-c-k-e-n that's the way you spell chicken!

that is a camp song aunt kathy taught me when I was a short lil one in pigtails helping her make chocolate chip cookies..(can you tell she worked at summer camps? there's a chocolate chip cookie song too- but i'll spare you that one for now.)

Today was an 11 hour day. cooked breakfast (mexicanish black bean and egg burritos) helped prep lunch, then all afternoon was spent moving the kitchen back in to the kitchen...and it looks great. We made it just in time. a 13 person timber frame class starts today and a 13 person solar class starts tomorrow...so we had a huge welcome dinner tonight, and i helped heidi get dinner together too. She was quite stressed out- we had a bit of our first kitchen disagreement this morning- she doesn't like the way i make quinoa.. and that's fine- i didn't take it personally, it was just a long morning.
breakfast tomorrow then I'm off the rest of the day, Sunday and Monday.

other exciting news, we had 5 chickens and a rooster donated to us- so we snuck them in at dusk while everyone was asleep so we'll See what happens tomorrow morning and they think "who is this stranger sleeping in my bed?" we now have 14 hens and 2 roosters...if they don't get along though we'll have 14 hens, one rooster and a tasty soup.

happy weekend!